Day 11 continued...

1 1/2 Cigarettes Today

Doing great so far! Told ya a busy day keeps the nicotine away. Blogging from work, a first! I had one whole cigarette this morning and one half of one cigarette on lunch. One: it's too damn cold to be sitting in my truck and two: I just don't plum enjoy it anymore. Unfortunately for me however, my body SCREAMS for nicotine. But when I get an opportunity to smoke, I end up gagging and coughing more often then not. Maybe I am just one of the lucky few that will be able to quit on my own simply because of the fact that my body rejects it. My mind will be the hardest thing to overcome.

See right now, I really want to go and finish that cigarette. I crave it. Bad.  But I know that once I go out there, freeze my patooty off, and start to smoke it, I will regret it. So, I am going to to try a completely foreign concept: NOT SMOKING. Amazing huh?! Believe it or not, and other smokers will stand by me, it's not as easy as it sounds. Telling yourself no in any situation is hard, but this is exponentionally worse. It's like taking a toy from a toddler...and I know how fun that is.

I have a half an hour to go on my break. Torture to think that that cigarette is just staring me in the face saying "Smoooooke meeee!". But I will not. If I can deny myself this one time now, then I can do it again, and again. The road to being tobacoo-free is never easy but one step in the right direction and you're on your way. Off we go.

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Day 11

Good morning all! I'm really excited to see that Kristin Kicks Ash is starting to kick some ass! Welcome welcome to my first follower!! KKA is now showing up on some major search engines and should be accepted to some equally major blogosphere sites soon. Yay! But it's still in it's fledgling stages, it's you the reader that makes it stand out! So thank you for your support in making this project a reality and keep telling your friends. Your support helps others and I kick the habit for good! However, I'm only assuming that my blog is the BEST blog out there in the entire world, so obviously I need some feedback. So once again, tell your friends, family, random people on the street! Yell it from the rooftops! Share, comment, tweet, text, thumb up, digg, whatever! I will be doing the same.

I have to work in 45 minutes. Sigh. It's supposed to be my day to go see my mom but with the snow, that is not happening. Might as well go to work, make some money. It'll be alright. I know staying busy will keep the number of cigarettes to a minimum today, a good step in the right direction.

Less then one week 'til the big move! Excited and nervous at the same time. But, can't wait to start my new job and school, finally one big step closer to acheving my goals of working with children.

Gotta go walk the dog, he's driving me batty. Never mind the fact that it's 2 outside and windy. Nope, no rest for the weary when you have a puppy.

Day 10

8 Cigarettes Thus Far Today

Well, I've been thinking about to write since I got home from work and have decided that there is nothing of note today, other then the fact that the freezing cold has not deterred me from smoking, don't ask me why. So, enjoy your evening and see you tomorrow!

Day 9 continued...

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3 Cigarettes a day

A good day! Maybe because I could not tear myself away from the computer or that each cigarette I have smoked thus far have been getting less and less enjoyable and making me cough more and more. But I still had to make that one painful desicion today: whether or not to smoke my last cigarette now or save it 'til morning. A thought that literally makes my heart skip a beat. The fact that I have to wait that long to smoke again makes me panic slightly. But then, the relief swept over me as I realized that I had saved some refrys out on the porch for later. However, the fact that I will smoke something that used and dirty grosses me out. Unfortunately, nothing overrides that fear of being without.

I have plently of reasons why I should quit smoking. There is just this one chain I have to break: the physical dependancy. I believe that if I don't make myself go without even just one cigarette, I will never break the cycle and this dependancy will be my downfall. I cannot afford at this time to use any kind of help in this extremely difficult process, so I have to go it alone. It's pretty scary. I have some doubt that I will not succeed. But I am hoping by keeping this blog and possibly gaining some support from readers, I, and anyone else out there sharing my experience, will be tobacco-free.

Exciting Developments!

After whoreing out my blog for the last two hours, I am starting to see some results. I'm not invisible anymore! So, welcome to those discovering my blog! Be sure to tell your friends! Please feel free to leave comments/feedback/your experiences on my site if you wish. Bookmark, thumb up, share share share! I really feel that this blog could take off. Thanks to all and welcome again!