Since last post, Christmas, New Year's, my birthday, and the job at the daycare have all come and gone. School has started (going great I might add) and I have started a new part-time job. Life's good...but it could be better. Better in the sense that I could be smoke free.
I say that with doubt in my heart, unfortunately. I have been smoking as I did when I started this blog. Back to the beginning again. Today, at work, I was spray painting a bathtub (long story) and thinking about the fumes I was inhaling. Jokingly I said to myself, "Well, it's probably healthier then the cigarettes I smoke!" Har har right? Well, I'm sure there's some truth behind that and it scares me.
I saw all the dust on the floor after finishing painting and thought about how that entered my body. I thought about what the cigarettes are doing to my lungs and I literally shuddered. So, here I am, attempt number ???. I'm not particularly motivated persay, but I'm willing to give it another shot. I always enjoyed blogging so I figure that, at the very least, will keep me going and maybe, just maybe I can be successful.
Starting tomorrow, I will reinstate my quitting plan by reducing the number of cigarettes I smoke in one day (right now about 10) by at least one . I know it's going to be [extremely] hard; I've been there before. I'm certainly not looking forward to that and that's why I'm not motivated to go through it again. But, if I want to be a healthy person for my friends, family, and my future while saving some serious money in the process, I'm going to have to tough it out.
Tomorrow is a new day.
